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Chapter 8 *the last*


So we went back to riyadh, nothing was so special, but that girl was with faisal was his sister she was sick, anyway feras knew about faisal w 9art mshkela w he left me for like 2 days, bs I didn't stop text-ing him w madre aish, and his friends mish3al and idk aish ism l.thany kan lhm jz2 kbeer enh rj3le.


He's back! But he's not the old feras.
And yes he told me that "ana brj3lek bs la ttw83een elle kan awal brj3lek"


Kna all the time in fight "without reasons" w kLh ygoulli lana enty mt3'yra.


We spend like 3 months maybe.
And guess what we decided to do 3shan yksr ha4a l.mw9'oo3 ?


One day we were having our daily conversation elle I tried to say anything l2ny mabe a6'yg 9dra w 9dry belklam l.5ays w enty t3'yrte w k4a.


F.R: babe bgoullik shy ok ?

Lana: suure 7beby

F.R: b3d km youm bje l.rya9'

Lana: 7yate belslama finally btnwer l.rya9'.

F.R: yslmek, bs aby agoullik b3d shy

Lana: eeh ?

F.R: 7bebty weddy ashofek.
Lana: eeh 7beby t3alu ent w jdtk 7yakm

F.R: nono babe abeke ben ydene abeke greeba menne.. Please just I want to hug you.

Lana: what ? 6ieb kef?


F.R: tjen m3e shwe belsyara bs aby shwy w anzlik wllah ma bswe shyy 3'l6 w enty darya


Lana: bebe osh,, elle tbeeh by9er


F.R: OMG babe I love you b3d bkra bje ana


And we completed
Our sweet conversation ♥


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Ja bkra w 2day is our date


Now its 12:00 pm


I'm really scared

I prayed l.9'hor !


W I bbmed feras


Lana: 7beby wenak?


F.R: babe yalla bagelh shwy y5l9 t6'leel, 3la 3 bkun 3endek


Lana: ok 7beeby ♥



6l3t 3end jdty gltlaha ana bru7 l.ml7g bklim telephone



6l3t..


1:00 pm


2:00 pm


3:00 pm


3:15 pm


F.R: PING!!!
PING!!!
PING!!!
I6l3e ena brra


Lana: coming


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I sat wra w he held my hand while he's setting gdam

He held my hands like 3 minutes ymkn then he kissed my hand w ja 3endy wra

I just threw my body on him ! Yeah I know its wrong but it was the best feeling. I feel here where I belong. That feeling was amazing.

He rose my chin with his finger, then he kissed my cheek down to my lips.


But there was a car tmr men jnbna fog 5 mrrat,

Feras:"lana mb syarat 5alek na9er?"


Me:"bs ymr ma 3lek"


Ok, gbl kL shy knt darya enh something will happen, actually I said ma 3lek bs dret enh bygfsh


I just hugged feras.


One minute later, I saw a red car wgft gdamna


W the car door inft7

5aly na9er: "inzly"


Nzlt w r7t lsyarta

I heard him ygoul lferas jeb mfta7 l.syara.


rkb w rj3 l.syara shwy w d5lt betna


A slap welcomed me

W I took a good thing of slapping and kicking and pulling the hair



When they finished.. 5aly na9er d5l jowa. I just ran the stairs and to up. 9ar y9r5 wenha jeboha


Me: "bnzl allah y5llekm bs la tswon feh shy tkfon 3endh l.sukkr"


W I got a good thing from hitting again

But I didn't feel any pain


I was only thinking about feras w aish b9erlah



5alty s7bty 3la l.3'rfa w 5ltny akllim feras 3shan rgm omh


Bs mu hu elle klmny, 36et l.jwal l5aty w galha l.rjal enh 8sm l.mroor



She closed the door and the lights w 6l3t brra




I'm dead. I can feel nothing
1 hour

2 hours

3

4 and 5 and 6


Then 5alty d5lt, she hugged me, then galt: "klmna omh w l.7een jaya ta54ah ho ga3d brra fe l.9ala"


Omh jat w 9art t9r5 bs I don't care


I heard something that killed me


He said that: "lana elle rmt nfsaha 3ly"

"lw o5te kan shrbt men dmha"

"Ana ma 3r6't nfse 3leha"


It killed me.


Omh a54tah w ra7u


Ra7t ru7y m3ah


Ra7 3gly m3ah

Ra7 glby m3ah


Ra7t 7yaty w th8t ahly w kL shy m3ah.


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5 MONTHS later

now i know what that dream was and what the dark place

I didn't stop stalking feras

I stalk him every day and every night

He didn't send a single word to me

Like nothing.


He's tweets shows that he's alive and nothing wrong with him
I was nothing to feras
One year was nothing to him

I remember how I hugged him as if I knew that he'll never talk to me again.

I have a necklace from him, this necklace gives me energy and happiness after god.

He have a life, and I have


I wish him all the best ♥

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A word from me to my one and only my feras:

I miss you, I loved you, I love you, and I will, I'm writing this for you and I'm hoping that you're reading YOUR blog. I'm still waiting for you ♥ thanks for all of the smiles, laughs, tears you gave me ♥ thanks for you for making me this woman, this powerful woman, this strong woman, this amazing woman, this woman who's waiting for you and hoping you'll be hers. Sorry for all the lies I gave! But it was for saving your life. Sorry for being stupid for a whole year, sorry if I didn't gave you what you want. Sorry for all ♥ I'll love you till the last breath I take. You're my everything.
I'm so hollow without you. I'm dreaming to see your face in any mall. I'm searching in streets hoping that I'll see your yellow mini cooper. Feras thanks for all the wrongs you made rights. Thanks for all the broken things you built. Thanks for the first real man you made me see. Thanks for EVERYSINGLETHING. I know you may not read this. Bs maybe you are, maybe the time of miracles is back again, maybe and maybe and maybe
feras I'm thankful for everything. I didn't hated you for one minute, I miss you more and more each day. I'm almost dead, and I'm waiting for you to make me alive again. If I'll write from now till the end of time it will never be enough
I still remember every conversation we had ♥ I love you. You left with no goodbye but I'll still love you, I love everything about you, when you're crazy,funny,cheesytalker,mad,serious.
I just love you, living for you ♥
I'm sure someday you'll read this sooner or later
Allah y7f6'k w ys3dk w yhneek w y7meek
God bless you ♥
The one you loved before..
Lana


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To my readers ♥ thanks for reading the story and sorry because its tooo short :*


God bless you all, love you

@ablogger105 xx