the last

Chapter 8 *the last*


So we went back to riyadh, nothing was so special, but that girl was with faisal was his sister she was sick, anyway feras knew about faisal w 9art mshkela w he left me for like 2 days, bs I didn't stop text-ing him w madre aish, and his friends mish3al and idk aish ism l.thany kan lhm jz2 kbeer enh rj3le.


He's back! But he's not the old feras.
And yes he told me that "ana brj3lek bs la ttw83een elle kan awal brj3lek"


Kna all the time in fight "without reasons" w kLh ygoulli lana enty mt3'yra.


We spend like 3 months maybe.
And guess what we decided to do 3shan yksr ha4a l.mw9'oo3 ?


One day we were having our daily conversation elle I tried to say anything l2ny mabe a6'yg 9dra w 9dry belklam l.5ays w enty t3'yrte w k4a.


F.R: babe bgoullik shy ok ?

Lana: suure 7beby

F.R: b3d km youm bje l.rya9'

Lana: 7yate belslama finally btnwer l.rya9'.

F.R: yslmek, bs aby agoullik b3d shy

Lana: eeh ?

F.R: 7bebty weddy ashofek.
Lana: eeh 7beby t3alu ent w jdtk 7yakm

F.R: nono babe abeke ben ydene abeke greeba menne.. Please just I want to hug you.

Lana: what ? 6ieb kef?


F.R: tjen m3e shwe belsyara bs aby shwy w anzlik wllah ma bswe shyy 3'l6 w enty darya


Lana: bebe osh,, elle tbeeh by9er


F.R: OMG babe I love you b3d bkra bje ana


And we completed
Our sweet conversation ♥


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Ja bkra w 2day is our date


Now its 12:00 pm


I'm really scared

I prayed l.9'hor !


W I bbmed feras


Lana: 7beby wenak?


F.R: babe yalla bagelh shwy y5l9 t6'leel, 3la 3 bkun 3endek


Lana: ok 7beeby ♥



6l3t 3end jdty gltlaha ana bru7 l.ml7g bklim telephone



6l3t..


1:00 pm


2:00 pm


3:00 pm


3:15 pm


F.R: PING!!!
PING!!!
PING!!!
I6l3e ena brra


Lana: coming


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I sat wra w he held my hand while he's setting gdam

He held my hands like 3 minutes ymkn then he kissed my hand w ja 3endy wra

I just threw my body on him ! Yeah I know its wrong but it was the best feeling. I feel here where I belong. That feeling was amazing.

He rose my chin with his finger, then he kissed my cheek down to my lips.


But there was a car tmr men jnbna fog 5 mrrat,

Feras:"lana mb syarat 5alek na9er?"


Me:"bs ymr ma 3lek"


Ok, gbl kL shy knt darya enh something will happen, actually I said ma 3lek bs dret enh bygfsh


I just hugged feras.


One minute later, I saw a red car wgft gdamna


W the car door inft7

5aly na9er: "inzly"


Nzlt w r7t lsyarta

I heard him ygoul lferas jeb mfta7 l.syara.


rkb w rj3 l.syara shwy w d5lt betna


A slap welcomed me

W I took a good thing of slapping and kicking and pulling the hair



When they finished.. 5aly na9er d5l jowa. I just ran the stairs and to up. 9ar y9r5 wenha jeboha


Me: "bnzl allah y5llekm bs la tswon feh shy tkfon 3endh l.sukkr"


W I got a good thing from hitting again

But I didn't feel any pain


I was only thinking about feras w aish b9erlah



5alty s7bty 3la l.3'rfa w 5ltny akllim feras 3shan rgm omh


Bs mu hu elle klmny, 36et l.jwal l5aty w galha l.rjal enh 8sm l.mroor



She closed the door and the lights w 6l3t brra




I'm dead. I can feel nothing
1 hour

2 hours

3

4 and 5 and 6


Then 5alty d5lt, she hugged me, then galt: "klmna omh w l.7een jaya ta54ah ho ga3d brra fe l.9ala"


Omh jat w 9art t9r5 bs I don't care


I heard something that killed me


He said that: "lana elle rmt nfsaha 3ly"

"lw o5te kan shrbt men dmha"

"Ana ma 3r6't nfse 3leha"


It killed me.


Omh a54tah w ra7u


Ra7t ru7y m3ah


Ra7 3gly m3ah

Ra7 glby m3ah


Ra7t 7yaty w th8t ahly w kL shy m3ah.


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5 MONTHS later

now i know what that dream was and what the dark place

I didn't stop stalking feras

I stalk him every day and every night

He didn't send a single word to me

Like nothing.


He's tweets shows that he's alive and nothing wrong with him
I was nothing to feras
One year was nothing to him

I remember how I hugged him as if I knew that he'll never talk to me again.

I have a necklace from him, this necklace gives me energy and happiness after god.

He have a life, and I have


I wish him all the best ♥

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A word from me to my one and only my feras:

I miss you, I loved you, I love you, and I will, I'm writing this for you and I'm hoping that you're reading YOUR blog. I'm still waiting for you ♥ thanks for all of the smiles, laughs, tears you gave me ♥ thanks for you for making me this woman, this powerful woman, this strong woman, this amazing woman, this woman who's waiting for you and hoping you'll be hers. Sorry for all the lies I gave! But it was for saving your life. Sorry for being stupid for a whole year, sorry if I didn't gave you what you want. Sorry for all ♥ I'll love you till the last breath I take. You're my everything.
I'm so hollow without you. I'm dreaming to see your face in any mall. I'm searching in streets hoping that I'll see your yellow mini cooper. Feras thanks for all the wrongs you made rights. Thanks for all the broken things you built. Thanks for the first real man you made me see. Thanks for EVERYSINGLETHING. I know you may not read this. Bs maybe you are, maybe the time of miracles is back again, maybe and maybe and maybe
feras I'm thankful for everything. I didn't hated you for one minute, I miss you more and more each day. I'm almost dead, and I'm waiting for you to make me alive again. If I'll write from now till the end of time it will never be enough
I still remember every conversation we had ♥ I love you. You left with no goodbye but I'll still love you, I love everything about you, when you're crazy,funny,cheesytalker,mad,serious.
I just love you, living for you ♥
I'm sure someday you'll read this sooner or later
Allah y7f6'k w ys3dk w yhneek w y7meek
God bless you ♥
The one you loved before..
Lana


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To my readers ♥ thanks for reading the story and sorry because its tooo short :*


God bless you all, love you

@ablogger105 xx

CHAPTER7

Chapter7







We turned around and we saw a small child, feras flashed me a smile and said bye..





I went to girls and we finished our breakfast..and everyone headed to her home to pack her things ;D






Yeah I didn't mention ! That tomorrow we're going to Dubai me and jdety with sara w noura w jdat'hum..:D






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We arrived to Dubai it was like 5:00 pm!


We laughed a looot in the airport and the airplane !


And we did that same in dubai's airport :D



R7na b'one taxi 3la l.fndg 7gna..


The hotel was I the Jumairah Beach Residence.. (JBR)


6l3na 6'b6na omurna w we nagged 3la ros jdatna len 5lona nnzl ntmsha ;D



I wore a red *not very short* cotton dress
with black slippers and black *TedBaker* bag ..



Noura wore a jeggings and a turquoise tank top
with a Burberry shoes and bag



Sara wore jeans and red polo shirt
with a red toms shoes and bags..




So nzlnaa w 54ena lffa 3la l.mkan w r7na g3dna fe starbucks


Fj2aa noura: "bnaat 4a elle bl6yara elle ma 5llenah b7alh"


Me: "eeeh y7lelah:c"


Sara: "a9watkoom y6ale3na ya 7ywanat!"


We looked at him for a moment then each of us shifted her gaze to something..


I started to pretend that I'm playing bmy phone..noura her bag..sara her nails


Me: with my eyes in my phone.."allah yfshlkm f6'7toona"


Sara: with her eyes on her nails.."E7na b3d :)"


Me: "7ram 3leke noura elle 9r5t"


Noura: "agoul erf3o rwoskm w klo zg"








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After we're done from taking the number 14525 walk ..
And laughing on how saudi girls there with full makeup and very very high heels !
 Like 3rs w rby. We went up to our room..


Sara and noura changed into they're pj's and fell asleep ..


I couldn't sleep.. I kept chatting with Feras on ask.fm
because I don't have bbm I don't know what's wrong .-.
Then he told me he need to sleep ..


After we finished our t3'6a w gom 3la l.9ala w take care w I dunno what ..
Mrrt n9 sa3a ! W I didn't sleep..
 It was 2:15AM..
I changed into a tall stretch pink dress
and a white-pink scarf on my shoulders
with a white slipper and I just took my phone and 50 dhs..



I went down to the lobby..
It was pretty sshhh except the bar noise ..
I ordered orange juice..
W I started checking my timeline..
I didn't checked it today.



Suddenly someone said: "Hey"


I turned my face to see who's this person..
 AND I WAS Shocked!
He's the same guy we saw in the airplane!!
 He cut my thoughts when he said: "can I set here?"


Me: "aaah la 5la9 ana gayma tf9'l"


Saudi guy: "la la ana bg3d m3k 6fshan"


Me: "ha" b3den I look around to see if there was anybody or not..
 "Ok tf9'l"


Saudi guy: while pulling the chair..
"M95rtony 6'7k bel6yara"


Me: "la la wllah 3la kl l.nas"


Saudi guy: "eeh sm3t" and he laughed


We kept talking about random things ..
 He told me that he came with his friends w hm naymen t3bo w madre aish
w about his family w I told him the same..


Me: "yalla ana b6l3 t25r l.wgt l.sa3a 3:30"
 actually I was shocked kef l.wgt msha


Saudi guy: "5la9 w ana b6l3 anam.. Yeah abyy ur account 3la twitter!"


Me: "5la9 give me urs w ill mention you"


Saudi guy: "97 ana ismyy faisal :3 w my account @FaisalALr"


Me: "w ana lana..5la9 I'll mention you..t9b7 3la 5air"


Faisal: " w enty men ahl l.5eer..nshofek bokra?"


I only flashed him a smile w I took my steps to the elevator


Then I went to sleep with a very huge smile on my face..





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I wokeup I didn't found noura w sara I called them w they told me that they are down waiting for me in burger fuel


I straightened my hair w I wore green sleeveless shirt with a skinny brown pants and a brown scarf..


I applied some eyeliner-blusher-mascara-lip gloss ..


I carried my LV bag and I'm ready to go


6b3n knt chatting with Feras all the time on ask and I told him that nazla at3'da w I don't know what


I wasn't I feras mood ! He really changed he's not the one I knew !


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I entered the elevator.. Knna fe l.door l.20 *yawn*


19


18


17


16 .. And the elevator stopped here ! Yooh maly 5lg a7d yd5l ! Bs guess men elle bd5l ! Oooh no I want to cry :c !


Faisal: "heeey beautiful"


Me: "ahlan"


Faisal: "kefek?"


Me: "l.7mdellah b5eer"


After 30 sc


Faisal: "w ana b3d"


We laughed .. And finally we got out the elevator


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We took the metro to Dubai mall, w 6b3n as usual anwa3 l.m95ra w l.9'7k ..



W9lna w 6b3n lfenah m7al m7al.. We saw the fountain 6b3n ben l.z7mat l.s3odeyen w as usual ma 6al3na l.fountain


Then r7na lcafe 3la l.nafora fe the bhar we ordered juices ! Bss we ordered one thing b3d



Noura: "heeeey bnaat 5lna nswe shyy ahbal"



Sara: "e6lby m3sel"


Noura: "wllaaah asweeha?"



Me: "laaa wllah mu 9a7yat enty weyaha"... "Bss eeeh eeh jebo"



We ordered strawberry m3sil



The m3sil came w 6b3nn t3ezmna men ybda

Sara.. W kL l.nas 6al3o fena


Noura.. The same thing


Lana.. Swet m9eba, suddenly..I can't take my breath, I felt like dizzy, my eyes started to tear..




Then with water everything changed



But what's the big shock?


Faisal was on the table behind us ! Yes he was



He was giving me shitty looks !



But wait laana he's not ur friend or anything!


I kept saying this all the time..





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we went to the Reel cinema .. 6b3n it was FULL of saudi girls and guys !



We took our tickets and we got some snacks ..



D5lna gbl half an hour w kan fa9'y bs gdamna 3 shbab ! I think they're s3odeyen 6b3n g3dna n36e b39' n6'rat elle bn6fsh'hm





So bda l.movie ! Bs actually it was silly ! So ma 3'erna ella elle gdamna :D


Me: "hey bnat I'll start"


Noura and sara giggled


So I stoodup w swet nfse abmshe cz I'm going to the bathroom, I act like am falling down w I pulled the hair 7g wa7ed mnhm ! It was (kadash) ! =)) 6al3 feeny

and he said: "tra t3wreeeeen"


Me: "ooooh wllah 2asfa b3'eet a6ee7"


The guy: "its ok bs intabhy ! La t5l3en sh3oor l.3alm"


Me: yaaaal6'reeeef and I gave him that "hh"


6b3n sara kept kicking krsy elle gdamha w noura throwing popcorns =))



The movie 5ll9 w as usual 7na len ntm6m6 w n5l9 6l3o kL l.nas =))



Bss meen elle ma 6l3 :D l.thlatha elle gedamna =))




Me: "bnat yumma gumu"



Noura: "yallayalla"



Sara: "aallah yl3nkm bsmellah alla4y la y7mena sewah..." And she completed =))


Suddenly they turned around ! One of them said: "awal shy la t5afon entm 5watna w ma bnswe shy" .. "B3den afhm leh k4a tswon"



Noura: "aaah ento s3odeyen asfen"



Elle I pulled his hair: "aaah y3ne ma glteelhm"



Me: "ha la la ma glt..yalla bnat imshu"


W we went out and to the hotel



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It's 2:30 now ! And I couldn't sleep ! I missed feras and am talking to him.. I took noura's blackberry ..
W I added him !
Ask is not enough



We kept talking talking and talking tell he fell asleep, daymn ynam w ana aklmh♥



6fsht so I wore my grey sweat pants and a pink tank top w nzlt l.lobby as usual !



I ordered coffee w g3dt .. There was only the Bar noise just like the last night.. W I started to think about random things..



Fj2a Faisal popped up from the nowhere ! I smiled to him ! I thought he was coming towards me but he wasn't !

He passed by with a not even hi ! What's wrong I don't know !



Me and myself's conv.: Lmen ray7 wra w mafe ella 6awla feha bnt bs ! Bg3d l7alh ! No lana wait! Beyro7 m3 l.bnt ! Aaaah </3 ! Wait Lana who's faisal a9ln ! He's not feras stop doing this ..



I turned around to see Faisal holding the girl's hands.. Ugh ! Idc..



I left my coffee as it is, I took my phone And my card and to our suite ..







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I hope you enjoyed this chapter ..




With Love..
@ablogger105

CHAPTER SIX

Chapter 6



I washed my face w I went out..
I checked bbm I saw a lots and a lots of msgs from feras




F.R: 7beebty lana yalla answer

Lana: 7beby wllah 2asfa

F.R: babe ana ma z3lt wesh aby akthar
knt wagef gdamek greb 3anek
ashm l.hwa elle tshmenah


And we completed the conversation
 remembering what happened



Then each of us fell in a sleep with a huge smile ♥



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**IN another world..



We were on the same stairs..
Sitting next to each other..
with the same amazing weather..
in the middle of red roses..
and he was half hugging me



Suddenly he stood up and he took my hands
and he said


"Yalla t3aly w7da b3d"


We reached the second stair but it looks bad..


It was all black


I felt like scared


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**in our world


I woke up..I checked my phone and it was 3:30 pm



I bbmed feras and I tell him that I woke up



Then I changed into a black top and a jeggings..



And I went down to have my lunch



I sat and I started to put some salad in my plate



Jdety: "lana"


me: "yes?"


Jdety: "tra a5er ftra mob 3ajbny w6'3ek"


Me: "hw laish ?"


Jdety: "men ams elle kan belm63m?"


Me: thaanking god that she didn't saw him l2no lw she did kan r7na feeha "ha? Men gallik"

Jdety: "bs goly"


Me: "umm ha4a w7ed kan men awal wagf wray yklmny w madre aish gmt lfet aby ashof wesh ybe w 5alty jt"


Jdety: "6b leh ma glty l5altek?"


Me: "maknt aby mshakel"


Jdety: "aah..ok ana ray7a l.youm 3la l.msh3'al bshof aish feh mafeh"


Me: "6ieb ok..w ana maybe aklm l.bnat w a6l3 l.soog"


Jdety: "ok yalla kly"


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@7:00 pm


I called noura and sara and I told them that we'll go to the mall 2day
and they said ok but they'll come to my place awal..

I was praying w fj2a ma alga ella l.bab mfto7
w sara da5la

Me: "l.slam 3likm w r7mt allah .. L.slam 3laikm w r7mt allah"
 ...
"Wesh tbeen enty ma tshofeny a9ly laish tft7en l.bab k4a !!!!! "


Sara: "mta jaya noura?"


Me: "sara abu broodik :)"



Sara: "ezbda nazla 2akil joo3ana"


Sara my friend.. She's my sister ♥ I love heer ♥ light skin color .. Short .. Brown tall wavy hair ..



5 dgayg w asm3 9ra5 t7t !! Bsmellah
I went down quickly w b3'et a6ee7 500 mrra


Me: "wesh fffeekum allah ya54kom ???? Fj3toony"


Sara: "Nou..uuuhhhaaaahhhhhaa..noura..aaahhhhhaaaahhhhaaa..6aa7..uhhaaahaaa"


Me: ga63taha "kly zg 5la9 I don't want to know bs la t9ar5on"


We decided to stay at home we sang bel karaoke w rg9na w swena 3rs w we ate like we didn't ate from 100 years


Finally after all they slept so I called their mothers and I told them so they'll sleep in my place



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Its 9:00 am


Feras finally called me..

 Ams kan 3endhm 3rs so kan msh3'ool 6ol l.youm


I picked up w 3la 6ool I said: "7beeeeebyyy ishtgtlk wenk ams !!"


Feras: "l76'a anadelek feras ana 9degah 3omr"


Me: oooh no "haaa..la 5la9..7beby feras la tstahbel"


Feras: "hw shfeke bnadeh"


Hw 9out feras am sure !!
Shket bnfse so 3la 6ool I ended the call.


I bbmed him


Lana: feras ana b6l3 af6r m3 l.bnat maybe bnro7 l.fay9aleya..love you ♥


He bbmed me back..


F.R: 7beebty I was kidding sorry it was me :c sorry babe I love you more


L.zbda enny mrra m39ba so I ignored him.


97et'hm lbsna w we headed to faisaleya


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D5lna w we ordered from Dr. Cafe


54ena l.ashya2 w r7na g3dna


Shwy my phone rang so I picked up and It was feras


He called me w gally t3aly wra 3end l.al3ab


G3d agoul la2 w madre aish b3den gmt glt llbnat ray7a l.7mam



I saw him so I took my steps towards him


Feras: "hla hla"


Me: I laughed


Feras: "ya5e a7bik"


I wanted to say I love you 2 bs something disturbed us


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Sssoooo sorry readers enh men zman I didn't post bs I was busy !! Sorryyy its action-less I know :c
I would love to hear your comments
With love
@ablogger105 ♥
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CHAPTER 5

Chapter 5


so we're in Riyadh now..


Feras didn't sent a single thing 2day
Est3'rbt men jdd!!


We took our bags and our things and we headed to home ..


Awal ma w9lna ist3'rbt l.beet leh mftoo7 3la 6ool I asked jdte


Me: "leh l.bet mftoo7 la ykoon insrg klmo l.shr6a bsr3a"


Jdte: "la wllah om a7md safrt m3 wldha w feras bg3d 3endna isbo3en"


Me: leh ma gally 6ieb !! "aaaiiiissshhhhhh" !!
I said


Jdte: "eeh 3d t7mly"

A very big super huge smile appeared on my face


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D5lna l.beet w lgenah bel9ala slmt 3leh jdte w 3laa 6ol 6l3t tnam t3bana


I was waiting for the driver to finish bringing the bags so I could close the door ..


He finished now so I closed the door


Suddenly I saw feras standing in front of me then he said il7geeny foog


I was like WTF O_o


He didn't even smile ! He was very serious !!


Ma swet shy .. Allah ystr


I followed him to his room *the guests room*


Feras: with a sharp voice "gfly l.bab w t3aly hna"


I closed the door then I sat next to him


I was looking to the floor


He held my hand .. He pained me


I said with unheard voice
"7beeby 3wrtny"


Feras: talking from between his theeth "LkKk wjh tgoulen 7beby"


What ? Kidding ? Ymz7


Me: "shfeek"


Feras: "swetlek accept 3la l.facebook w mshallah kl shwy y6l3ly ism wa7ed jdeed.." :)


Me: "feras wllah 2asfa wllah ma aklm a7d mnhm w ma beny w ben ay a7d shy"


Feras: with a very bad looks "ha4a elle 3endek?"


Me: "can I talk?"


Feras: "bbja7a b3d ? Lana e6l3y brra I need to sit with myself"


Me: "7beby ism.."


feras: ga63ny "la tgoulen 7beby w i6l3y brrra bsr3a a7sn"



I went out..
took my steps to my room..
Cried..cried..and cried ..


I opened my facebook and I deleted every single guy ..


Then I bbmed feras my password ..


After that I wanted to check feras's account he didn't accept me l2nh kan ygoul my sister w my cousin w ma abeehm yshofon..


But the shock when I saw Yara :):):)
he told me she was his cousin ..


But I knew that she's his ex :):):):)
or his girlfriend elle kan yklmha w yklmne


w yglly la trde 3leha lw klmtik 3shan la t3rf w madre aish w believed him :)
stupid lana


I bbmed him


LANA: hdet ?


F.R:wesh tbeen ?


LANA:men yara ?


F.R:igre w la tga63y


LANA:ok..


F.R: lana ha4e yara my old gf w men zman ma klmtaha w jt fj2a bs friends 9rna ..
W kmml tbreerat s5efa w ana sakta


F.R: lanno 7beeby la tz3ly


Lana:sure 7beeby ma bz3l ♥
 it's ok
Yalla goodnight


W I turned my phone off ..


All I can do now is crying and talking to myself


Leh swa k4a..
leh k4b 7lal 3leh w 7ram 3ly ?
Leh ha4a mu feras elle a3rfh ..


Bs I love him mabe az3lh w awreeh eny z3lana 3leh


Aaah ya rab sa3edny



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I woke up..
Finished my things in the bathroom
 then I wore a skinny jeans with black top
.. W nzlt


I didn't saw neither feras nor jdety..
T3'det l7ale w g3dt bel9ala


5 minutes and feras came in
He didn't even bothered him self to say hi!


He went up quickly


Ana l.mfro9' z3lana ho k4b
 ana ma k4bt w glt ma 3endy a7d.


Ho kan yl3b 3la ethneen


39bt w 6l3t foog lh


I knocked the door


Me: "feras?"


Feras: "yes?"


Me: "can I come in?"


Feras: "t3ale"


I took my steps toward him ..
He was busy with his phone ..


I wanted to talk with him !
 I need him but he seems to be bothered..


So I closed the door and left the room in silence !!


I kept asking myself all the time why he would do this !!
Am wrong but he did a mistake 2 !!
 Ma k4bt wla 5nt ho k4b w 5an


Fj2a I heard someone knocking my door.


Me: "yes"


Feras: "ad5el?"


Me: "tf6'l"


Feras: "7beeby lolo ana 3'l6an w 3'l6ty akbar men 3'l6tek w you know this,,
bs 7yati a3'ar w abeke tms7een kL wld 3endk ok ?
Babe ana a7bk w ma ar6'a wla a7d yshrekny feeke"


Inside my head: (ooh mshallah..bs ho 7lal l3'eery wedy a6ghhh mob 6aygtah wla I3t4r wla shi)


But I said: "no problem 7beeby m3leh..2asfa"


Feras: "its ok babe"


And he left


Wlllaaah !! Wla gal sorry wla shyy !


Ok !! Ok


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Two weeks flied..Feras went to his home 5la9


Finally ..
 The whole 2 weeks we didn't had one of our old conversations </3
it was only about goodnight and good morning..


Jdety galtly nby nt3'da fe piatto m3 5elank w zojat'hm jo men l.sfr ams
""hm a9ln 3aysheen brra klhm"


I said ok


I bbmed Feras


Lana: 7beeeeeeby ;;)


F.R: yes?


Lana: feras 7beby ma y9l7 k4a
Afhm leh k4a ana ?


F.R: 7beebty ana 6ool l.osbo3en 3aysh bhm..
7beebty maly wjh aklmik ana ..
 7beeby ana ms7taha l.7ywana w mabe aklmha.
Madre kef swet k4a


OOOOOH 7ssss !!


Lana: feras bebe tmz7 !
Ana ma z3lt ..
 Ma7d ma y3'l6 ya 3umrii :(


F.R: 7bebty :)
 allah la y7remny mennek


Lana: wla mennak ya rab ♥
7beeby tra b6l3 5elany jw w bn6l3 nt3'da ok ?


F.R: ween 7beebty ?


Lana: piatto


F.R: 3ade ashofek ?


Lana: la 7beeby magdr..


F.R: tkfen fog fa9'y 5 dgayg w amshy


Lana: ok beeebe


Ok swet k4a men wra glby ma knt aby :'(!


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Its 4:00pm


Lbsa w r7na and we met them slmna w solfna 6b3n 6ool l.wgt 3la a39aby ana :)


w am shaking w 7alty 7ala ..
W what makes me more nervous when he sent
F.R: yalla e6l3y foog ana brra


Lana: omg. Ok yalla bswe nfse ma54a jojo al3bha


**jojo bnt 5alty 3 years


I went up w 76et 36r bsr3a w 6'b6t l.ashya2 w mshallah jood mra kant hadya :):)
ldrjt she didn't played ella w ana jnbha ..


W the good thing enh foog faaa9'y kl l.nas t7t even mafe a7d ysht3'l men l.m63m..


F.R: lelo enzleely


Me: okkk yallah


Nzlt l.drj w knt m3'6ya wjhe 3shan m7d yshoofny..
w ana nazla feras ja bwjhy..
gd shftah 97 bs k4a la2 :$
shlt l.3'6a men wjhe
 knt astnah yje jnby 3shan n6l3 swa fa he said: i6l3e jood ga3da tbke


So I went up and he followed


Jojo finally ra7t tl3b so r7t lferas elle ga3d fe l.waiting area l.fa9'ya elle foog


Wgf lmma shafny madre shfena k4a


Wgft jnbah


Feras: "ummm kefek"


Me: "l.7mdellah :$"


Shwy ella jojo tje w r7t m3ha g3dna k4a aro7lah shwy w shwy yjene


Shwy jojo d5lt l7alha w feras kan wray lffet 3leh abklmh ella y6l3 his mobile w he started to pretend that he's talking..I turned around to see om jojo tgoulli men h4a *5alty*


Me: "aaah wllah madre men hoo"


She gave my that (k4aba) look w she went to search for him!!
 Thanks god he went down to the kitchen !!


5alty came back w she gave me looks w sart tl3b m3 jojo ..


An idea flied to my mind 3la 6ool glt: shn6ty nset'ha hnak bjebha !!


I headed to there and I told  feras to go to there where we first talked


And I followed shwy ella 5alty t6l3 men wray tgoul yalla lana nnzl


I was like WTF !!
 6l3t w 3la 6ool rkbt l.syara kLhm ra7o m3da ana w 5alty w bntaha ..


I got into the car..


W I saw feras going out to his friends !!


I didn't talked to 5alty the whole way to home !! I just wanted to cry :)


Rj3na l.beet w 3la 6ool I went up l3'rfty w d5lt l.7mmam w I started to cry like a crazy !!

 

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CHAPTER FOUR

Chapter 4


After we arrived to home I saw mom I sat with her shwy then I headed to my room and fell asleep

@3:00 PM


Jdety: "laanaaaaa goomy yalla bn6l3"


Me: "mabe bnaam"


Jdety: "bsr3a om a7md shwy w btw9l hnak"


Me: "mabe ro7o ento..a9ln meen om a7md"


Jdety: "ha4eek jdt feras"


Me: jumped from the bed "wwwhhhaaaat?"

Jdety: while laughing "eeh yalla gomy"


Me: "ok 5 minuets" with a huge smile on my face !


I took my steps to the bathroom and I took a very fast shower..
I waved my hair and applied some blusher..mascara..and red lip gloss,
I wore a red top and a white lace jacket..dark skinny jeans..red heels..carried my Doir red and white bag
and i'm ready to go





So I went down and we headed to Sunny side park..


On our way to there I checked my phone and I answered mentions and dm's on twitter then I checked bbm
I found something
 FROM FERAS !! OMG IT'S THE FIRST TIME :D


F.R: gonna see you \=D/ ?


Lana: yeeeeaaah ensha'llaaah :D:D


F.R: can't wait baybeeh *beer*


Lana: :D♥


We ended the conversation here :D

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We met with feras ♥ and his grandmother :D we sat shwy then suddenly


Feras: "ana bgoum atmsha shwy"


Om a7mad: "intebeh allah m3ak"


Jdety: "lana gomy m3ah"


I shifted my gazes to feras and he winked knh ygoul gomy yallah


Me: "ok"


I walked away with feras next to me .. Silence is the only one who was talking..


I didn't liked that silence so I coughed ;;)


Feras: "smellah 3leke shrgte?"


Me: "la I didn't bs aby aksr l.9mt"


We both laughed


then he said: "lanno"


Me: I felt dizzy again and I tried to look that there's nothing wrong "yes?"


Feras: "one day isn't enough to make you fall for someone right?"


Me: OOOH NOOOO ! "Maybe" I said while looking at the floor


Feras: while raising my chin up with his forefinger "its enough trust me"


I can feel my stomach twisting and turning ..
And my heart playing jump the rope..
And I know my cheeks wore their red dresses..


Am feeling like this world is mine now!!
But wait lana he didn't said that he loved you !!
Stop it !!!!!!


A sound cut off My thoughts ..
 It was an old woman ! She looked cute!!!


She said: "guys you form a super cute couples"


Feras flashed my a sexy smile then he thanked her !!
 now i'm sure that he love me


OOOH GOD
I WILL NOT CRY
COME ONE LANA FOR GOD'S SAKE !!


Feras: while he placed his hand on mine "a7ibbik Lana w men sheftek 3jbteeny w kbrty b3ene b3d elle sweteh ljdty"


Me: red face.. Shaky hands.. Shy shaky voice.. Eyes looking at the floor "3ade nrj3 hnak lhm"


Feras: "a7ibbik"
 and he shouted with a very loud voice "I LOOOOVVEEEE HHHEEER"


L.7mdellah we were too far from them wla knna klena zg 7na l.ethneen :):)


Me: "tkfa goom ktheer 3rb hena :'("


Feras: "after you 7beeby"


5laaa9 hna 5laa9 I melted !


On our way to grandmothers feras held my hand and pressed on it

he left my hand when we almost arrived to them

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Feras kept sending huge smiles and winks the whole time


And every time he sent one I feel butterflies in my stomach !!


Suddenly my phone vibrated..
I checked bbm and he was feras


Haw ha4aho gdamy !! WTH !


F.R: PING!!!
F.R: PING!!!
F.R: PING!!!


Lana: yes ??!


F.R: look at me right now :D


Lana: I won't !


F.R: yallah


Lana: ok


I looked at him and he shocked me with a silent fly kiss


Thanks god nobody saw that !!!!


After we were done from the launch everybody went his way..

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we arrived home..kissed mom w 3la 6ool I went up to my room


Emma knocked the door and I allowed her to come in


Emma: "lana I want to ask you"


Me: "about?"


Emma: "feras?"


Me: "what's wrong with him?"


Emma: "I want to ask about what's between you and feras!"


Me: "huh -_- there's nothing between us" I lied


Emma: "didn't you see your tomato face ?!"


Me: "I want to sleep emma :D"


Emma: "ana pe ma'aloom kisses and smiles and winks" :D


Me: turning myself to the other side.. "Goodnight emma"


I love her =)) she's my maid !! She came to us when I was 1 year old ..
She's not married so that's why she stayed with us !!
 I love her !!
She's like my sister !!
My mother sometimes :'3


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The 2 months passed quickly..


Feras went to saudi arabia one month ago..


our relationship grew and became more stronger ♥
in every moment we love each other more and more ♥


every night we say to each other our goodnights
 and in the morning our goodmornings..


aw9eh gbl ynam enh yt3'6a w ylbs kwyes w ma ynam gdam l.mukyef
w ygra l.krse w l.m3we4at w he do the same thing..♥


and If I went for shopping or anything I ask him for a permission before I go
 and he do the same ♥


he got mad if I didn't pray
and I do the same ♥..

I show him what I'm going wear before going out
 so if its short or tight he order me to change ♥

I LOVE him !!

We told each other every single detail in our lifes..♥
he know everything about me..
and he told me everything about him..


Allah la y7remny menah w bs ♥..

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Please forgive me if you found any mistake..
and am sorry:*
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With Love
@ablogger105

CHAPTER THREE

Chapter 3

My stomach started to squeeze.. I felt dizzy !! Stop it lana he don't know you y3ne wesh begoul !!


Feras: "shy 6'roory" and he got deep into his stupid (sexy) laugh !!

Me: "tra ma y6'7k mrra w trak s5eef ok :)"

Feras: "z3lty?"

Me: 5eer!! "La..yalla ill take a small nap till we arrive to london so their I can regain my energy" ..
and I gave him my back to see shitty looks from a saudi teenager girl sitting next to me all what make her away from me is that passageway..
I ignored her and fell in a not very comfortable sleep


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In another world


I was in that same dress..with the same things..but this time I was in a garden
A really super huge garden..
The ground was full of green grass and colorful roses and flowers

I can feel the cold breezes on my face..it was amazing..

Suddenly the same Feras I saw in my first dream came and held my hands..and he started to read ayt l.korsy..with the same amazing voice..

Then he took me to a huge stairs and we went up for only one stair and he said. "we will arrive to there..I promise"


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Again to our world..


Feras: "lana gome tra byhb6 yallah"

Me: I felt that feeling of happiness again am just happy .. I only answered him "ha"

Feras: "agoullik bnnzl gome"

Me: "ok" and I flashed him a smile

Feras: "agoul men zenek yalla bs malt malt"

They announced that we have to close all the windows and put our seat belts on because the airplane will land in minuets..

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FINALLY we're in London Heathrow Airport !!!!!

Ok I wasn't that happy because maybe feras will not be next to me on our way to Toronto ! :(

But in the same time I was asking my self why do I want him to set next to me its not the big deal w mo lazm w madre aish..

The whole time in london airport I was sitting watching (elle ray7 w elle jay) or eating or drinking or reading a novel or searching for Feras..

Jddty the whole time was with jddit feras..

And feras is no where :)

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Aaaaah l.7mdellaaaaah I'm going to sit next to Feras ♥ am soooo happy !!!!

He started the conversation with saying "agoul lana"

Me: "sm"

Feras: "sm" he meant to complete my sm so it would be smsm -.-

Me: "elle b3do"

Feras: "l.zbdh ttw83een ennek krema y3ne?"
Me: "eeh l.7mdellah a36e ay shy yn6lb menny lw enh 93b 3ly"

Feras: "wllah?"

Me: "l.7mdellah o:)" flashed him a smile

Feras: "3d t9dgeen ma twg3tek k4a"

Me: "haw aish twg3tne"

Feras: "twg3tek jubn mali7"

Me: "oooh god!! Rbby y9brny 3la l.akthar men 19 sa3a elle bagya"

Feras: "2ameen allah y3eenek"

We kept talking and laughing ♥ I had a lot of fun !!!

All that fun and laughter disappeared when he asked: "mashoof ommek w abook"

Me: my tears started to take her place in my eyes "ommy ray7enlaha 7na l.7een..." I wiped my tears quickly then I complete "she got divorced when I was 5 years old since that year I didn't saw my dad I don't know him" then I added "mama 3aysha bCanada
For no reason..she's trying her best just to be far away from me"

Feras: placed his hand on mine while pressing "2asf i4a 6'aygtek belsu2al"

Me: "la bel3ks its ok"

Now its the time for that awkwardly silence between us

But this time I am the one who popped it off with saying: "6ieb w ent?"

Feras: "ommy w aboy twfo men knt 5 ebteda2y.."

Me: "allah yr7mhm"

Thanks god one of the flight attendants came and said "ynf3 ahrej m3akom"
Feras: "ya hla ya hla" then he turned his face to me and he said "Lanno 3ade"

Me: once he said lanno I got wings and felt like flying "ha"

Feras: "yaleel men klmtek w enty tgoulen ha w ha!! 3ade yg3d m3na ysolef shwy"

Me: "sure..tf6'l"

He sat with us like half an hour and he told us about his job and how he keep transforming from a plane to plane..
He seemed to be (7jazy) I LOVE THE ( 7JAZY) accent


Fj2a I said: "TKFA 3lemna 7jaze"

Turki *the F.A*: "men 3youny" and we laughed all

Feras: "eeh yalla tkfa"

Turki: "t3rfo esh y3ne gwam?"

Feras: "eeeeh eh y3ne bsr3a"

Turki: "6ieb m9rfda?"

Me: looked at feras then I looked back to turki "la2a aish y3ne"

Turki: "y3ne mst3jela..6ieb t3rfo esh y3ne do7dera?"

Me and Feras in the same time: "7na nst5dmha" we looked at each other and he smiled
Now I can feel the tomato color on my cheeks X_x

Turki: "ana shkly 3'l6 hena yalla 3n ez'nakom"

Me: "la la la wllah mafe shyy"

Turki: "ya she5a ay mafe shy ay mafe shy!!" He said while giving us his back and walking away

I looked at Feras and he flashed me a huge big smile

Feras: "lanno t'hgeen youm w shwy y5ly l.wa7ed yn3jb bw7da ?"

Lana: "l.7ub ma y3rf"

Feras: "uhaa" and the huge smile grown again on his face

I looked at the floor because I know that he's falling for me and I'm pretty sure that he knows that am falling for him ..

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What happened just didn't change Anything
We kept talking about random things and he took my bbpin so he can add me and my twitter username to follow me..

Finally We landed in Toronto-Canada's airport.. before I move from my place i said goodbye to feras and I thanked him for all that fun and laughs we had !! we finished all of the procedures and everytime I see feras I flashed him a good bye smiles and send him the looks that you give when you thinks that's this it the last time seeing this person..
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SORRY GUYS I know this chapter is bad !! You'll help me a lot with you comments..opinions and criticisms ♥ sorry if I have any typos or any mistakes ♥ sorry again if the chapter was boring bs you know I can't put all of my ideas in one chapter and the airplane ideas ma tsa3ed enny a76 feha action w a7dath

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